I know you are wondering what happened as I usually make a post every other day or so... I am currently dealing with a lot. I was recently attacked out of nowhere by more than one person on Facebook and I am now contemplating whether or not I want to continue traveling the road of advocacy.
I have advocated very hard for the past few years against sexual abuse and domestic violence. I have shared how both my mom and I have been hurt by these catastrophic issues. I have also shared how I have healed and how others can too... However, I have been told by those, who have NEVER heard me speak about these issues, that I am not healed and that I need to "stop"....
On one hand, I feel that I absolutely must continue advocating because of how prevalent these issues are. (1 out of 3 girls and 1 out of 6 boys are sexually abused before 18 years old and 1 in 4 women experience domestic violence in their lifetime... do the math--millions of people are affected!) At one time in my life I needed someone to help me, tell me what route to take, encourage me to talk to someone so that what was happening would stop... I often wonder what would have happened if I ever met an advocate as a teen... Would I have told sooner? Would the person who harmed me now be in jail? If I would have had a rape kit done, would they have believed me automatically?
On the other hand, I feel that I should stop sharing my story as it has hurt those that I care about. I am told to give others "another chance" because they are "human"... However, the same way I am told that I need to forgive, I feel they should too.
So, I am dealing with one-sided thoughts and people. My phone is currently off and will be for some time. For a while, or at least while I sort things out, I will not update personal Facebook status messages nor will I update my community work, however I will continue it.
I am truly hurt right now, but it is not because of the abuse, but because of the poor relationships I have with those who don't even talk to me about what is going on but are supposed to care... All they know is what they see on my blog--none of them have have directly asked me prior to attacking me what I am going through, how they can help me, etc.
So, for now, I will stop sharing my personal story (while others out there are suffering from the same situations) and forgive as I was told to do....
I guess that is only fair. But, if they are reading this... EVERYBODY deserves a second chance and is human--remember that and be an example.